ii lurbB uu♥ Sep 20, 2009'
2:11 AM
A:
WeLL, what uur excuse , MAI?
your the only girl in your family for 18 yrs
but even with all the attention .. uur aura is still so dinghy,haste-y Gray and COLD.
Me:
i dont believe iin auras~!
B:
Yea, uu dunn believe iin anyy ting ...
Me:
0HH~well iim sorry ii cant be as high , strong and crazy like the rest of uu~!
B:
i`m sorry too! i wish you wud be high strong and crazy for once , instead of kipping all uur feeling bottle-ed up inside~! A: jus called uur a dinghY AURA
Me:
wart do you want from mie? a teary confession about how hard my childhood life was?
well iit wasnt .
I was a average rich girl who get anytiing i wanted as long as ii behave ... And tat still.. didnt speak unless spoken too.. my parents said i have to kiip out or trouble... as dad is busy working and has alot of thing tuu tiink about .. well ii have a controlling mum with expectation ...
C:
Well, tat iit then~! s0 uu have a controlling mother.. who has certain expectation ... and iif uu get straight with them , u wud get shut dwn ... tat whyy uur afraid to care abt anything.. and tat why uu cant express your self...
Me: uu wann miie tuu express my self? LEAVE MIE ALONE~~!
B:
ii liike iit when uu express !
ME: d0nt touch miie .. ii`m still Hurt and mad at uu, uu are the same .. uur jus g0nna leave ...
you guys tiink ii have a easy going life ... cry finish and i`ll jus start bck as normal then happy smiling going giirl .. who laugh at everything small or big matters .. weLL I`M NORT tat GIRL ..l TAT NORT THE REAL miie ... II DUNN EVEN KNOW WHO THE FUCKING HELL II AM ?
f0r so long ii tot tat iif ii diid everytiing ii was suppose to do ... you guys wud accept miie and every tiing would be fine ... and i`ll be HAAPPY.. and iim bck there and u guys talked to miie .. and uu guys even tiink ii`m better now .... every tiing shud be excellent now right? ii shud be happy now .. but ii nort ... i`mm saddier and angrier then b4 NOW ~~! AND I DUNNO WHY ?
C:
well, there a simple qus for u to answer. who are uu angry at ?
Me:
no one i`m jus amgry..
B:
yea, mai who are u angry at?
Me:
Every one... AHh.. ii DUNNO!
C:
is it Him ?
Me:
no no
C:
your uncle?
A: mie?
Me:
No NO NONO
B:
then who Maii?
ABC:
then who are u angry at ?? who ?
C: answer then question Maii!
Me:
I ANGRY AT MYSELF ~!
C:
why?
Me:
becos i`m confuse .. becos ii dunno wart the diferent between wart wrong and right... being a kid and an adult ... wart play and work .. wart stress or pressurised or relax.... when choosing the course ii am iin now iis right or wrong.. or even liking hiim is suppose tuu be correct? ii neber really tot of my life seriously.. ii dunno how being happy feel liike ... ii`m jus followiing wart ppl do ... pain = cry happy= laugh angry= shut up .... ii jus following iit liike a book....
liking and loving tiing...
ii`m jus messzed up iin my head ....
Z.Z
WHAT THE HACK .. NO ONE CARE ANYY WAY ...
bY6EE
Maii
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Ping.
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